Saturday, July 19, 2008

stress sick or life is daunting ?

I seriously do not know what is happening to me ?

When it comes to nightfall, and everyone is tucking into bed quietly and slowly falling asleep. I am still awake staring out of my windows seeing lights off from one apartments to another, or i will be tossing and turning around in my bed, my mind actively flipping its 'memories switches' on. I will start to think about my past, about my family, about my life, about my future, about money, about love, about religion, about uncertainty, about food, about what to do tomorrow, about almost everything which you can think about in the fantasy world. I AM SERIOUSLY NOT FALLING ASLEEP!

I NEED HELP !!! IS THERE SOMEONE WHO IS KIND ENOUGH TO TELL ME WHAT TO DO ?

When people ask me , hey is your life so stressful? i could not think of things which i feel very stressful about. Except that most probably i am very confused about things. This sleepless problem have been bugging me for so many years and nothing has been helping me.

I tried meditation before, exercising and blah blah blah . it just do not work. ( anyway i exercise regularly except recently) but even my fat neighbour sleep like a pig !!! ( thats when i come home late and i hear him snoring in his room )

I do not want to resign to my fate. I want help. I want to sleep !! i want to rest. and guess what, the only time i rest well is in the afternoon .. hey thats weird!!! i imeediately fall asleep in the afternoon but i take hours to fall asleep in the night sometime not even sleeping at all.!

I even read up books on sleeping better they say
- have a good sleeping partern
- have a consistent temperature ( any dip or rise in temp will cause u to wake up )
- make sure ur workplace is far from ur sleeping area
- do not read or work on ur bed
- prepare urself mentally to sleep 1/2 hr before if u are working or watching tv at home
- switch off all static electricity
- do not clutter ur sleeping area

i have to be honest ... i only manage not to read and work on my bed and switch off all electricity.
I think most probabaly, i will need a spartan room, remove all shit nonsense, and so i can sleep better. but i wish that i am just thinking too much la...

some even said medication - melatonin , sleepeasy therapy like massage, aromatherpay ... doesnt help ler ... doesnt really help ler ...

okay maybe i need a pyschologist ba ... or i really need another person to sleep together with me on the same bed !!!! so i can feel the warm of the other person ..... arrgh .. i am not pervert ..

but i recognise the magic of touch ...

okay for now .. i have whine enough ...

its 7am in the morning now .... time to try to go bed or go for a short jog...


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